Why I am doing this

Hi I am Athena
I have debated starting a blog for years. I have done online journaling on social media sites for almost 2 decades but never felt like I had the gumption to open a true blog. Today as I lay awake due to severe pain, I decided today will be the day I start.
What will my blog be about?
It will be about me, my life, and my mental health. I have a severe case of Borderline Personality Disorder, with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and issues with Anxiety. I have been in and out of treatment for 12 years. Every day I face a different battle within myself, that may cause me to become difficult to handle, and even violent in many ways. I never intentionally or plan on hurting anyone, but it happens as I overreact to situations quite abruptly. Borderline causes me to feel all my emotions very deeply so over time I as a poor coping method I attempted to suppress emotions I didn’t like, because of this these emotions just bottle up, then of course, exploding irrationally later, hurting everyone around me, and myself the most in the end. I will be documenting these explosions and the outcomes, and learning processes, and how to prevent them. I am in active treatment currently, which is immersive psychotherapy, this is testing me and digging into my subconscious to conquer those pesky “triggers”.
Goal and The One and Only Trigger Warning
My goal is to bring awareness, to possibly help someone, and to have a place to openly express. This will not be a “safe space”. I will be discussing my past which is full of “triggering” topics such as childhood sexual abuse, rape, parental neglect, spousal abuse, child abuse, drugs and alcohol and more. If you are not comfortable with any of these topics or topics related to them you are now warned to read with caution. I will not make this a downer, whinny, pity-party blog. There will humor, lessons, and cheer mixed in. Life needs a balance. Ying-Yang. ☯️
Thank you for being here, please come again.

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